I lost my father very young, but not young enough to not be aware of what was going on. My father and I had an amazing relationship. We were very close. I fell into a very dark place and I couldn't deal with [the] loss. I started eating excessively and gained a lot of weight, and I was very sad. I wasn't in a good place. I wouldn't say I had an eating disorder, I would say I was going through depression.